Well I'm back at the moment, visiting people I used to know, and one thing has become violently obvious to me.
I DON'T MISS BEING HERE. Theres a damn fine reason why I left and that was to follow my dream of becoming an optometrist, which I'm doing, which I love and which in all honesty was one of the smartest moves I've ever made. I've met Andrew, the most gorgeous and loving being ever to walk this earth, and I've found something that makes me truly happy, and I'm going to do it everyday for the rest of my working career. Helping people to see again, to make the right choices for their vision, is amazingly rewarding, you get to make people smile, and they thank you, and are geuinely happy that they found you.

I'm back in perth for a break from melbourne, for a chance to experience warm weather again, but I'm realising just how much I have changed and outgrown the people I used to know. I've been out a few times since I've been home, catching up with people and I realised just how much I've changed.
There used to be people who's opinions could make me feel like a queen or the smallest creature in the world, with a change of their mood, and now they have no effect on me. I see them for just what they are- insecure.
There are people who I used to want to help, who made me feel bad when they cried, for something insignificant that wasn't my fault. I see them for what they are now- emo
There used to be people who I thought were cool. I see them now, struggling along on a path with no future in their "would you like fries with that" jobs, or lack of jobs, and I understand theres a reason why I left- to grow, both mentally and emotionally.

Not all my old friends are bad, there are some who are really happy to see me, and thats great. There are some who will grow up to be successful, doctors and lawyers and engineers etc. They're fabulous people who deserve everything they will get because they have worked so hard for it, and because they care.

Since moving to Melbourne I have made some truly awesome friends, and some fairly scummy ones too, but it doesn't matter because every day I improve my life a little bit, and I learn.

Coming back made me realise, who I used to be and just how far I've come, and I am both amazed and excited by the results.

Well I'm back in the sunshiny state of WA again
Ready to reek my usual chaos now that I've had a sleep (soz to neone who saw me in the first 2 days was a bit jet lagged and not my usual self.)
So yeh I'm back, GET READY TO PROTECT YOUR STOMACH

I need to get out of this house, my gramdfather is driving me nuts. Someone plz call me and get me outa here... HELP ME KEEP MY SANITY!!!!!

newayz I'm only home for a month so I wanna catch up with everyone so plz ring me.

Well.... I leave tomorrow,
I've got my going away party tonight, I just wanna bawl. You never realise what you've got and what life can offer you till you gotta leave it all

I know that I'll have fun over there n stuff, but it just hurts sooo much leavin everyone.

I'm gonna miss you Peter

Luv ta all Amanda

Ok I wanna go away and cry now...
Everything atm feels soooo mixed up, on one hand I'm going away, brand new start vey excited and happy
on the other hand is leaving a whole bunch of people I care about. It really hit home on Sunday, when I said goodbye to all da sailing people, I'm gonna miss leigh and kirstin and megan, and tim and yes even matt

I know that I'm following my dream to become an optometrist, its just such a pity they don't do da course here

Ok so if u know me, then u'd know that I've been having nightmares about this ruddy driving test for the last coupla nights now, but guess what, I PASSED!
I now have my learners phase 2
No more nightmares about crashing into cars during the test, no more nightmares about having satan as an assessor, just me and my pretty blue learners phase 2.

That and the melbourne thing thats getting scarily close, I really must get ma book off Vinay at some point.
10 days to go

Luv Ya's
Amanda